I guess it's just fate

If I have the right to complain and whine, I want to use it today.

See, it's just a week away from my birthday. I've always see birthdays as a special day, where I give myself right to spoil myself. I want gifts, not necessarily expensive or fancy stuffs, but something wrapped neatly. To me, unwrapping gifts itself is the best part, while one tries guessing what's inside. I want a cake, something sweet that would remind me of how good life is. Initially, I was thinking of buying myself an android phone as this year's birthday gift.

But you see, I don't think this year it can be done. It's not like I have rich relatives or friends who have spare money to be spent spoiling me. I have always been, and I guess will always be, struggling by myself and for myself. The thing is, even my saving is not enough for a birthday cake. I've used most of it for moving out of the old house into the new one. And now...

But who am I to complain, right? While out there, some people have barely nothing to eat. Some people out there, struggle harder than I ever had to do just for one meal. Who am I to complain, while I still have my work, my arts, my friends, and my loved ones?

So I guess, this year would just be another simple birthday. Just sweet wishes, no gifts, no cakes. To tell the truth, it's kinda sad. But I guess, that's just how it would be. I guess, it's just fate.